The key of a successful relationship.
How i feel.
I feel like every single little thing i do when it comes to you is a mistake. I feel like im always doing something wrong and you’re never pleased. I just wish i could know what was on your mind so i can say and do the things that would make you happy because you matter alot to me. More then you will ever understand…
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I was right. You clearly don’t give a fuck. I’m stupid for even trying to vent/fix things with you. And too think you would care, but friends always be before me, when I remember you said me and your friends were at the same. I guess it’s cause I bother you too much, or either I’m annoying. Sorry, I’m clingy. Yeah I’ve realized what I am doing wrong, but how will it be like if you don’t have me by your side anymore? Idk maybe you won’t care, probably move on huh? Well. Sigh . I tried.
Idk anymore
I wanna keep things going, but why should I? You seem to not care about me as I care about you.. It’s like before. I remember we were like this, and the time I was still.. In the same exact position. While I was to suffer, and keep us from fighting.. Sigh. I know, maybe things will get better idk. I just don’t know what to do. You haven’t really made time for me as much. I still remember the promises we made, and all the things we’ve talked about. I think it’s all because of me, I’ve been too clingy, and all. But it’s only because I love you tooo much, and it keeps going. Maybe you’re just better off without me? I don’t wanna think that, but it seems like it. Sorry. You deserve a much better boyfriend..
Nights like these
Become now a every night thing. I’m dying just to talk to you, but you don’t wanna hear me out. When I need you most, where are you? Though I still wait till I am able to hear you, yet we don’t talk as much, and I don’t have a chance to say what’s on my mind. It’s kinda sad, now only because I’m confused. Am I the one who only cares? I always wanna make sure we are good, but idek what’s good now. I know that you need your space, but why so much? I can’t even get to you anymore. I can no longer talk to you as long, and when it’s the weekend like where you said we would be able to.. We still don’t. Why? Idk, kinda wondering if you would know. I know you have needs, but so do I. I try as much to fit them, but it’s hard only because I love you too damn much. And yet it fucking sucks, because now I just feel like a loser telling you stuff, that maybe you don’t even care. Yeah, and I you don’t mean to do thing, and say sorry. But saying sorry loses its meaning Everytime. That’s what you told me. You tell me it’s gonna get rough around this time, but think about it. Would it be rough if we let it? I honestly don’t think so, all I wanna do is be able to have what we used to have. We seem to have went down hill, and feels like you’re not gonna do anything about it. I’ve been trying to tell you, but it doesn’t seem to get by to you. If you haven’t notice how I’ve been acting , then it may seem different because idk what to do. I’m just confused. Yeah, people are like get over it, it’s life, but no fuck that. Life also contains love, and love is happiness and sadness. I don’t wish our relationship to become perfect, I know it’s still far from that. But if it’s gonna keep going on like this, then it’s just not going to get anywhere. Plus , I’m not gonna just stand and let us fall apart, but it doesn’t seem to be working. I can’t say really think of what to say , except that I’ve become physically & mentally tired. Think about how it would feel to lose everything. Would you enjoy that? Would that give you all the space you need? Idk, maybe even be stress free. Sorry.. I just love you. And love hurts , but idt it’s suppose to keep hurting me. Well, idk.
